have been here in syd for more than 6 weeks...然后我又突然意识到，用英文写，实在太公开了。

 很喜欢这里，我必须承认。干净的空气，水，食物。树木，学校里大片的草地。

  前几天我终于实现一个梦想，在阳光下，躺在草地上，什么都不做，只是看着天，还有低低的云朵，幸福满溢。

 

         那种感觉多好，除了缺少一个爱的人。

 

或者是认识的新的朋友们，经历的新的事情. 

   我承认我真的喜欢坐着朋友的跑车在城市里穿行的感觉，

           只是，依然有些，心不在焉。

 

   忙碌的生活真好，我不多想。  只是还是太懒太笨，需要对自己苛刻再苛刻一点。

      让自己有所改变。

 

       有时候心情还是会莫名的就不太好。

还是漂浮着，

因为少了某种gravity。   

 

                         别担心，

                   我只是，低落。

 

 

 

- eels

 

I need some sleep.
I can’t go on like this.
I try counting sheep,
But there’s one I always miss.

Everyone says I’m getting down too low
Everyone says: "You just gotta let it go"
"You just gotta let it go"
I just gotta let it go

I need some sleep
time to put the old horse down
I’m in too deep
and the wheels keep spinning round

Everyone says I’m getting down too low
Everyone says: "You just gotta let it go"
"You just gotta let it go"
I just gotta let it go

You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go
You just gotta let it go

 

first time i heard it ,in eddie's space.

 

"u just gotta let it go"

 

so true.

 

six classes of beings are described as inhabiting the desire realm:

 

天道    gods( mundane celestial being whose primary mental state is exaltation)

 

阿修罗道 antigods (who are predominantly hostile and jealous.)

 

人道    human beings (who are influenced by all the five dissonant mental states)

 

畜牲道 animals(who are under the sway of delution)

 

饿鬼道 anguished spirits(who are under the sway of attachment and unsatisfied craving)

 

地狱道  hell beings(who are overwhelmed by hatrad ,anger and fear.)

      

 

 

for as long as space ensures, and for as long as  living begins remains,

 

      until then may i too abide to dispel the misery of the world.

 

                                ---- shantideva

  

                            

                  乃至有虚空，以及众生住。愿吾住世间，尽除众生苦。

 

                                     ——寂天菩萨

  剃度。

 

该了断的，应该都了断了。

 

你永远拥有我最美好的祝福。

 

愿吉祥。

 

thanks for everything you gave me,thanks for everything that we've been through  together.

 

i appreciate it all.

 

and remember you are the only one in this world

who made me truly,truly happy.

 

我在寻找的东西，也许终有一天，我会找到答案。

 

也许我们终究，

 

殊途同归。

 

for the record,  i love you.

 

有些东西，像你说过的，

 

乃至菩提。